Pyper Angel mcCardle Wells

Pyper angel mcCardle wells you were our 9th baby.A baby sister for Nicole,Jordan,Teigan,Gage,Khy,Chase,Rourke and Bailley.When we found out i was pregnant we were so happy.At 8 weeks i started bleeding,i was worried but the bleeding stopped and things were fine.Then at 12 weeks i started bleeding again.Me and daddy went to the hospital and we got a scan,you were ok,we saw your little heartbeat.Once we knew you were ok we were so glad.Over the next couple of weeks we started planning for you to come home.we bought nappies,babybath and lots of other things for you.Then at 14 weeks i started bleeding again but much worse than the last two times.Me and daddy were really scared that we had lost you this time.Once again me and daddy went to the hospital and we had another scan.Once again we saw your little heartbeat and you were kicking and moving about.We knew then that you were a little fighter.The hospital didn't know why i was bleeding but they said everything was fine.As the weeks went by you got bigger and bigger.You were starting to get proper little kicks.I let all your brothers and sisters feel you move.It was Thusrday the 20th september and i was 28 weeks and 4 days.I noticed that you were not moving,i thought you were just being a bit quiet but as the day went on i started to panic.I prayed for you to move but you didn't.I went to the hospital again.Driving to the hospital was the longest drive ever,i went so slow.When i got to the hospital we had to wait for over an hour to be seen but it seemed like a lot more.My name was called and a midwife took us to a room and she put the monitor on my belly.She searched about and for a second we both thought we heard your heartbeat but it disapeared.The midwife said it would be quicker getting a scan,so she went to sort that out.we went for our scan,lying on the bed i prayed that you would be fine.They put gel on my belly and moved the scanner over my belly but i knew something was wrong,i was watching on the screen.You were not moving,no heartbeat,nothing.Then they said it "i'm sorry" the midwife said "your baby has no heartbeat".I will remember those words for the rest of my life.I just wanted them to say "wait a minute there's the heartbeat"but they didn't,they just said "sorry".They said i could go home but i would have to go back in a couple of days.The drive home was longer than the drive there.I could hardly see the road through the tears.We told your brothers and sisters that you were away with the angel's and that you wont be coming home,then the tears started again.We cried the whole weekend.I didn't want sunday to come.I wanted to keep you safe,i wanted to keep you forever.Me and daddy arrived at the hospital at 11am.They took us to the room were you would be born.You arrived at 02.13am on the monday morning(the day before mummy's birthday)you were so beautiful.I tried to wake you up ever so gently but you just stayed asleep.To hold you in my arms and just cuddle and give you loving kisses while my heart was breaking was the hardest thing ever.The midwife took you away to be weighed,you weighed 2lb 6 oz and you were 39cm long.When you came back to me and daddy you were dressed in a baby pink babygro.You were so perfect.Me and daddy took it in turns to hold you.Me and daddy cried for a long time.We were allowed to stay with you for as long as we wanted to.They took us to the family room were we could stay with you.I held you close to me all through the night,wishing that you would breath.The next day was was mummy's birthday and i will remember that day for the rest of my life.I gave you a bath and put one of our babygro's on you.I kept the little pink one which i sleep with every night.We stayed with you till 9 that night then it was time to say goodbye.I kissed you and told you how much we love you and would never forget you.Daddy got the midwife and daddy carried you away.Going home without you was devastating to mummy and daddy,we cried for hours.The next couple of days was a blur.We had to arrange your funeral.Me and daddy got to see you one last time.You were in a beautiful pink coffin.You looked so peaceful.Your grandad gave me a gold cross for you which i put round your neck.All your brothers and sisters got you a teddy each and made the most beautiful cards and we put them in beside you,then we kissed your head and said how much we all love you.Your funeral was on thursday 4th october.We had your service in the house so that you could come home just once.We played a beautiful song and said a prayer.I looked at all your brothers and sisters and i felt so proud of them,they are devastated that you are gone.We left our house to go to the cemetary.Mummy,daddy and bailley went with you,i sat and just cuddled your tiny pink coffin.We have visited you everyday since.Daddy got you some lights so that you wont be in the dark and daddy bought you the most beautiful pink picket fence so we can keep all your teddies and things safe.Sleep tight pyper,you will always be our baby girl.Till we meet again angel,love mummy and daddy xxxxxxxxxx